Innocence is gone
Just had an argument with ny ex about this, he still loves me and i want to say i love you too so bad but i keep telling myself no, too much happened already.
But maybe it’s not about what happened in the past but whether if i can forgive him and forget or not..
Way too complicated :(
i tried to hang myself
the rope tore after i passed out.
i tried to poison myself
but immediately purged it all out again.
i wanted to jump in front of a car on a high way
guess which high way was closed half an hour before?
i’m so stupid and hurt
and no one cares haha
I am tumblr? :D
Okay guys.. So.. I’ve gained some weight and i recovered very well:) i’m not afraid to eat anymore, the problem is that it disgusts me. It’s the food. Not me. And yeah.. Two days ago i couldn’t sleep, i had so many nightmares. All with the same content.. I was getting fatter and fatter and fatter. I started crying and i think i had a panic attack
I want to start losing weight again :)
Some might think i shouldn’t do it but it’s my body - my choice! :))
If you could give me some motivation and advise, that’d be great ( feel free to fill my box! ;p)